Didn't fall asleep til 4am. I thought working out would help my insomnia but it hasn't yet. I'm hopeful that it will eventually but I also did a workout after work at 8:30pm last night. Not a fan of the late evening workouts but you have to do what you have to do. So I woke up at noon, exhausted and just wanted to sleep all day. But I did that one day last week and my day off and it was terrible. After working out so hard, going back to a day off full of sleep and little movement, completely dragged me down. Why I have fallen in love with the gym, well working out, so much is because of how it makes me feel. I get done and I feel so good; like my depression (had depression since I was 16 years old) diminished. Any and all stress goes away. I have never felt so good. But today was rough.
First, very little sleep.
Second, I had a cheat meal.
Looks yummy, right? It was. Zucchini Supreme Pizza from a local pizzeria in town. I even ordered another slice of a Bianca Pie pizza and couldn't even get to it. I was full after that first slice which was surprising to me. I always have two slices of pizza at this pizzeria. I feel my stomach getting smaller and appetite changing. But that yummy slice of goodness destroyed me. My stomach was tore up, I was sluggish at the gym, and I wanted to leave after 10 minutes on the tredmill. Was it worth it? No, not really. I did however force myself to stay on the tredmill for 40 minutes and do some strength training. Not as much as I normally do but with the way I was feeling, I was proud of myself.
I'm also really joyful and feel utterly blessed at the amount of support I have...
From friends:
From my family: (my mom working out at the gym with me)
And from strangers!! (I commented on a picture that Jillian Michaels posted on her Facebook and was in shock by how many people "liked it" and replied to my comment with overwhelming support for me)
It really encourages me seeing all the support I have and shows me that I can do this. I have people rooting for me. It makes me feel wonderful.
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