remember

quote of the day:

"You be the lady that God has called you to be.
So what if he wants to leave? Let him leave!

Sometimes we try to hold onto things that God is really trying to tear apart.

I dare you to trust God. Believe. Just trust Him."

[Tyler Perry's I Can Do Bad All By Myself]

Renew

I found a passage in the bible that the Lord has just thrown in my face the past few days...
First my mom told me of this verse when I was speaking on the phone with her very upset over some problems with a friend.
Then the very next day Pastor Les had an AMAZING sermon and it was the first verse He spoke of.
Then I was reading my bible last night and decided to read the whole chapter and that very verse was highlighted in that Bible. AND this is a Bible I have very rarely wrote/marked/highlighted anything in, in fact I could only find one other passage besides that one highlighted out of the whole Bible. It was like God was striking me on the head!!

Romans 12:2 (New Living Translation)
2 Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.

Or I really like the word renew used...

Romans 12:2 (Today's New International Version)
2 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind...

I just find this as a beautiful teaching that the Lord is giving me. I am so blessed. So this is my prayer: for the Lord to renew my mind, my ways, and alter my life.


PS :: I really hope the snow does not hit us as bad as the weather men say it is supposed to (two feet!). We [Trinity REAL Worship Choir] have worked very hard for Christmas Eve services and I, and everyone else, am extremely excited. I don't want it to be postponed!!!

heartfelt

I can not even describe how crazy blessed I feel and how thankful I am.

God has just been molding me and working on me this past year and I feel completely changed. I feel strong and whole. I am still working on who He wants me to be, but I know I am more than one step closer. And the joy, the unspeakable joy, I have felt, especially in this past week, is just so amazing. One thing is I know I'm not just growing up but I am growing up with Him. I feel Him in me and with me, it is something so indescribable but beautiful. I just have all these random, heartfelt emotions. I don't feel so lost anymore, because He has FINALLY told me that I am right where I need to be even though I have no idea why. But I don't feel the need to question Him, I know it's all right.

One thing that I have been bothered by is judgment. Judgment from my peers and judgment I have been doing myself. I know I have a problem judging others, as everyone else does, but I also have a problem judging me. Lately I have felt people of my peers have been completely judging me wrong, it's caused me to take a step back, some hurt, and has given me some anxiety. But on Saturday night, when I was praising the Lord, He spoke to me...it was so so clear what He said::

"Do not be concerned about the judgment of others- they do not see you as I do. You are My beautiful daughter, valuable to Me, and that is all the matters."

What an AWESOME thing to hear God say. It was just so surreal to hear, it was just what I needed. Why do I care about what others think of me? Honestly no one truly knows me but God and maybe my mom and some of my closet girlfriends. If people don't want to take the time to get to honestly know me, and just want to judge me...it's okay- that is their problem!!! I need not worry. I need to just keep seeking God and asking Him to mold me and create me into who He wants me to be.

I'm happy, so happy. And so blessed that He is with me. I'm truly grateful.