God's breakdown

What a beautiful breakdown.

Friday, 8-21-09


I was at Converge and the worship team was singing/playing a song, "I Will Exalt You" (Hillsong), and it just started. The tears. God absolutely wrecked me, in such an amazing way. He ripped my heart apart and opened my eyes. I left the room and just started to burst into hysterical crying. All I could do was cry. It wasn't out of sadness or hurt or any such negative thing. I could just so strongly feel God working in me. I'm so grateful. He was showing me things about myself that I need to encounter. So I sat in the hallway for 30 minutes with tears that couldn't go away. I got prayer from a friend and it just made me so happy that he knew what I was going through. Then I sat and just spent some time with God, the very thing I've been missing. An hour of weeping with and for God. I immediately felt cleansed and things were made clear.

I just had never experienced such closeness with God. I am in awe and feel such joy. Speechless. It's an experience I cherish and hope one day to happen again.