the works

God is doing a great work in me.

I have found myself having such emotions lately that I have never had. I have found myself crying different tears that I have never shed.

I have cried tears of such joy. The tears that come out are because I feel that God is so so real and so close to my heart right now. I get overwhelmed in a complete joy, that I just cry because I'm so happy that God is in my life.

I have cried tears of pain, but it's not pain from sorrow. It's pain coming from God working in me and showing me what I'm doing. He's completely breaking me open and working on my heart. Showing me that saying that to that person wasn't the right way to go, showing me how to be a better christian and a better me. He is shattering some of my view points, shattering my ways of thinking, shattering the lies that have been placed in my head from the devil, and opening up new doors and new experiences. He is giving me a new life, and sometimes I can't help but cry when he shows me who I am, who I should be, and who He will make me be if I continue to follow Him.

And lately I have cried tears that I don't even know where they come from. It's like I just sit there and start crying but I don't know why. He is showing me that I have greater things in my life to deal with and areas of my life He needs to work on that I didn't even know existed or that I struggled with and I had no idea I was. But He knows I will overcome. So when I cry these label-less tears, it's Him saying "hey this is bothering you, we need to work on this, so stop ignoring it."

I never knew that crying could be so beautiful. I never knew how powerful tears could be. But it's wonderful, and an absolute gorgeous process. God is doing amazing things. And I'm going to keep surrendering my life to Him. No longer do I wonder or question what God is doing, or why He has placed this situation in my life. For I know He is working and molding me into a better self. I could not ask for anything greater.